I was once lost in astonishment. at the same glance, bewildered. and puzzled. I thought it was gonna be easy. But it looks like I am just no remarkable no spectacular no wonderful no fabulous etc. You see, I have always wanted to be a dentist. and I ended-up being in the engineering team. I used to love biology so much, but today struggling for physics and mathematics. I wished for happily ever-after love stories but they were just fairy tales. Today i'm crying for nothing.
..until I read these
And for Allah is the Highest example (Nahl:60) When Allah Subhaanahu wa Ta'ala, in His Infinite Wisdom, tests us with a situation that we think is difficult or takes away something that in our mind was good for us, we need to remember that perhaps it may not be so. Perhaps if we had continued in our way, it might have been harmful for us and whatever Allah decreed for us is actually better for us, for He is All-Wise and All-Knowing.
Al-Hasan al-Basri - 'Do not resent the calamities that come and the disasters that occur, for perhaps in something that you dislike will be your salvation, and perhaps in something that you prefer will be your doom.' So if Allah didn't give you that big house, or that nice car you wanted or that big raise you were hoping for, know in your mind and believe in your heart that it is actually better for you. Who knows maybe that big house, that car or that money would have become a source of test for you. Perhaps you would have become arrogant and conceited because of it, and Allah saved you from it.
Muhammad saw - 'Any one in whose heart is even a mustard seed's worth of pride will not enter Paradise. And if you have been sick and suffering, sure it is not easy. But again, know in your mind and believe in your heart that it is indeed better for you. For, if you bear patiently, it will be a means of expiation for your sins and a source of great reward. There is nothing that befalls a believer, not even a thorn that pricks him, but Allah will record one good deed for him and will remove one bad deed from him. If Allah took away a dear, loved one, believe, from the bottom of your heart, that surely this was better. For, you never know, had the one who passed away lived longer, may be his life would have been one of sins and disobedience and Allah, out of His Mercy, took him before that in a state of Iman.
Anyway, I'm glad that it wasn't that tough for me to handle myself after knowing that I did not meet the requirement from MARA in order to fulfill my dream to be one of the student in University of Manchester. After all,I knew that I have done my best during the long period in kmb. I assert myself that Allah has a better plan for me in the future.
'and that He did not send this calamity in order to destroy you or cause you pain or finish you off. Rather, He is checking on you, testing your patience, acceptance and faith It is actually a sign of our weakness and shortsightedness, that we tend to focus on the calamities themselves, without paying much attention to the benefits that they may bring.' We also forget to look at all other innumerable blessings that we enjoy and see around us.